Paris Jackson, daughter of the legendary late King of Pop, Michael Jackson, has opened up on how she attempted taking her own life on a number of occasions.
She spoke about her mental health and how she battled depression, adding that she attempted committing suicide on a number of occasions.
Due to the increased degree of public attention she was subjected to while growing up with her father, the 23-year-old stated that she suffered from “standard Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).”
Jackson talked about her trauma in an interview with Willow Smith on Wednesday’s “Red Table Talk,” admitting that she is plagued by the sounds of camera clicks that encircled her father.
“I experience auditory hallucinations sometimes with camera clicks and severe paranoia and have been going to therapy for a lot of things but that included. I’ll hear a trash bag rustling and flinch in panic.”
USA Today reported that Jackson also reflected on her past attempts to end her own life and what brought her out of that mentality.
“A lot of people do feel regret when they try and attempt suicide.
“There have been times where I did and times where I didn’t, where I was upset that it didn’t work. But I can say, several years later, that I’m really grateful that it didn’t. Things have gotten better.”
“It was really hard, and people would tell me to kill myself everyday. And I was depressed”, she added.
After many unsuccessful attempts, she admitted that it “just wasn’t meant to be. Just like, OK, I’ve tried and tried and tried, and it’s just not working. Maybe it’s just not my time, and that sucks,” she said.
However, the musician disclosed that her mental health improved as she learnt to practice praying and self-affirmations in front of a mirror, adding that it led her to “recognize myself for the first time in 10 years”.
According to thenationonlineng.net, she said, “I experienced self-love for the first time in my entire life. It was this really corny moment between me, myself and the mirror… It was so intense. Just a lot of gratitude. It took a really long time to get to that point”.